Not a good day.....

Don't mess with me.... Don't know why... but I am so UNCOMFORTABLE!!!! I am so mad... I am very not feeling well.... no matter I sit, I stand, I sleep, I eat.....

hummm...humm..... That is it....

a Break!!!!

 I am waiting for Sept. I don't need to have FULL day activities....... I just need a break... and I am sure Kenneth is going to plan that for me...

Yeah... friends... we are leaving Canada in the end of September... to relax and be honest... to get burn!!!!

Anyway,.... ..... can't wait... not only me.. .I think Kenneth needs it...

Peace after frustrated night...

Believe it or not. I miss Mickey quite a bit. I guess I miss Cookie very much. I mean it. When I am alone at home, I really can't stand the quiet. I really can't stand the lonely without any animal with me.

I was being so frustrated yesterday. I had no idea how to speak it out, but cried really hard in front of Kenneth. Kenneth was very frustrated too. Since He didn't know how to help me. 

 After a very very bad night, we both were ok. He had a very bad headache and I had clamp for period as well as the headache. We both stayed home and tried to relax. This was how we treated our bad day. We watched Dr. Oz. and he was working thru emails.

Camping soon. I am looking forward to it. I will prepare better this time in case bear coming in.... =)  Trust me, I will bring more caution bells. ....

Looking forward to it.

Cub Motto: Be prepared.

The following Chinese are published by Matt Chow:

想擁有，先學會失去 (2011 June 13 by 鄒凱光)

其實我們本來就是一無所有，我們的所謂擁有，都只不是過眼雲煙，鏡花水月，能夠享有過，已經心滿意足，你識咁諗，你就不怕失去，你就擁有得最多！你仲未識唔緊要，我有個方法可以介紹俾你，名為「失去演習」

當我們擁有一樣東西，就會有失去那樣東西的一天，這是相對的定論，有生就有死，有開始就有結束，有擁有就有失去！做人只有接受事實，才會想到解決方法，接受擁有的東西，會有失去的一天，然後要畫早學習面對失去時痛楚，如果學習？就是去「失去演習」，以我自己作實例，我是經常演習收到爸爸、媽媽或其他親人死訊，想像我應該點回應，想像身後事要點搞，想像點通知及安撫其他親友，想像自己沒有了至親，日子應該點過.......曾經有段時間，我是每日想一次的，但後生發覺想到有點悶，就改為三兩日一次，由初初一想起就喊，到現在已經接受如果發生，都只不過是人生中的一件正常小事！我要再次聲明，這並不是一個好灰的想法，接受現實，才可以活得快樂！如果你一時間未慣這個方法，可以試試由我開始，如果我有一日離開了，你又會怎麼樣？就算係好開心都無所謂，最緊要係你肯用下個腦！

I started to prepare all that coming since the time I felt so closed to death. Believe it or not. It was my Granduncle in 2002. He went to hospital for regular check up and surgery and went to heaven in a month. I was the last one who saw his body and zipped his bag. Since then, I started to prepare all the death around me.

Mom always told me that she was going to die soon. Dad went to the door of heaven once. KH almost got killed from some accidents. .... Then, I had to start to prepare Kenneth.... but ... before anyone in my life... I have to prepare "you" to leave me soon...

I was not having you since you were young. You came to my life when you were 4-5 years old? It was not easy for you to adapt into new environment. You were so scared of everything. little sound, little creatures and even our little move... Then you were getting better... 

Now, I have to say Sorry to you, Cookie. I have to leave you behind bcoz I have my new life. You are still waiting for me to come home everyday. You are still willing to play with me even you can't run/ walk anymore...

Sorry, Cookie, you can't live with me in my new life. The only thing I can do is coming home to see you as much as I can. I always prepare the worse everyday. The only thing I am praying to LORD is not letting you Suffer in your last stage. I really hope you won't feel any suffer at all. Don't worry. I will be there for you NO MATTER WHAT!!!! I don't wanna regret anything in my life. You are the one thing I may regret. I am sorry, Cookie.

FINALLY ..... I have my own card reader

Finally, I made Kenneth to get me a card reader.... I can put more pictures on here .... FINALLY.....

See how great a husband he is...?? He knew my shoes were broken, and he would buy me the new one.

But his shoes were broken, see what he was doing?

he became a SHOE REPAIRER!!! !!!!

In case you didn't see what he was doing, he was using a needle to sew back the broken part....

Thank you, Kenneth.

Life is still moving on... =)

It was my Birthday. Kenneth was giving me surprises one after one. Thank you Kenneth.

Life after marriage didn't change a lot. Still the same... Nothing really change ...

Kenneth always check around the house to see if anything need to be complained. I always stay in the room as I didn't feel well since I got back from Honeymoon cruise.

Dear friends... Life with someone you love and look up to GOD together... is way EASIER than look up something ourselves. Not walking with GOD may end up go on the wrong path ... and start over again.

Don't waste your time and your energy. Be patience, listen to God, let him guide you, open your eyes... =)

This is how we are trying to do, what about you?